The absent moon : a memoir of a short childhood and a long depression
(Book)

"When Luiz Schwarcz was a child, he was told little about his grandfather and namesake Laaios-- "Luiz" in Hungarian. Only later would he learn that his grandfather, a devout Hungarian Jew, had defied his country's Nazi occupiers by holding secret religious services in his home and, after being put on a train to a German death camp with his son Andrae, had ordered Andrae to leap from the train to freedom at a rail crossing while Laaios himself was carried on to his death. What Luiz did know was that his father was a very unhappy man, and his melancholia haunted the house. Young Luiz assumed responsibility for his parents' happiness, as many children of trauma do, and for a time he seemed to be succeeding: he blossomed into the family prodigy, becoming an outwardly gregarious, athletic, and academically successful young man, eventually growing into a literary publisher of great promise. But then, at a high point of outward success, Luiz was brought low by a devastating mental breakdown against which his resources were pitifully inadequate. The Absent Moon is in part the story of his journey to that point and in part his journey back from it, as Luiz learned to forge a different, more honest relationship with his own mind, with his family, and with their shared past."--,Provided by publisher.